big city, peru

this is my second day in lima, and i hope not to be here any longer!
i do not have the creative energy to write, but felt i needed to update my whereabouts. i´m planning my trip into the jungle now. i´m taking the ´adventurous´route. i think i´ll be taking a bus to huanuco tomorrow, (not sure if it´ll be overnight or not) and from there to pucallpa, where i´ll be taking a cargo boat to iquitos, the jungle capital which can only be reached by boat or plane. the trip can take anywhere from 4 to 7 days, i´ve read of other´s experiences and talked to a man who did it, seems the quality of experiences vary, but overall an unforgettable one, and i´m gonna do it. then i´ll fly back to lima.

i don´t think ever in my life i have felt so lost as i have this last week or so. i have felt heartbroken and confused, weak and lacking energy to do anything. i have literally made myself nauseous with anxiety, throwing up a fruit salad that cost me 10 soles.
i have not much else to add, but i sense today that i am recharging. and i think this upcoming leg of my journey will require me to be very strong.
i might not feel like writing for quite some time, but i think my email is clearly accessible here for anyone to contact me?