I can´t believe this. I have just spent an hour and a half writing out this incredibly detailed entry of my travels thus far and then accidently hit the power off button on the keyboard instead of the backspace and lost it all, and now I am really discouraged...I can´t even begin to retype that all. But I want you all to know how I´ve been doing. I feel kind of bad for not really being in touch with anyone...But I will say you have all been in my dreams. Never before have my dreams been so full of faces. I have met many people, but at this point in my journey, I feel it is right that I am completely on my own. I am learning what it truly means to ´be with myself´. This being with myself is not at all the way I have perceived ´spending time alone´ in the past. I am learning to make peace with myself. To let go of the internal conflict, knowing that there is nothing to resolve. All I can do is listen. This is possibly the most beautiful thing I have experienced here thus far...And I can´t even begin to describe the beauty of the Andes. I spent the last 3 or 4 days in relatively remote indigenous villages that surround what is probably the most spectacular facets of nature I have ever witnessed, the beautiful crater lake of Quilotoa. After immersing myself in the natural and eternally peaceful surroundings, and being in contact with the beautiful and friendly indigenous people, I felt as though I have regained my trust. I was having a bit of a difficult time with myself before. I feel content, even during the hours spent staring up at the ceiling of my miniscule hotel room...
And I wanted to say a thank you to all of my family whose love I often ignore, for loving me. This sounds so cheesy written out like that, but while on a bus from Banos to Latacunga, after having a difficult night of feeling upset at my experience, angry at myself, nauseated with my endless internal banter and questions, I saw all the faces of every person that morning who has loved me, does love me, and I was amazed at how many there were, and...I don´t know. I felt really grateful and uplifted and special. And I wanted to say a special hello to my precious brothers!! Hi guys!! Isn´t your sister so cool for doing this?? Haha, I LOVE YOU!!
oh, and i guess i could really sum it all up pretty easily by saying i have mostly just been walking around...